had the ugliest day of my life yesterday. too tired to blog. i dont know where to start. its the day i lose him forever because i know its too impossible to have him back. im afraid, im scared already. i dont what the both of us wants. i dont hate him and i think i should forget about him in my life already. i hate to know the reality.

15.1o,
i woke up and toke a shower. then played sims 2. was working on me and bian's family when he called. he asked if i wanna meet him. but its so late already, going to sylvia's bbq soon so i told him not to meet today or maybe later and he got all angry with me. he said friends are more important then him. i was really angry he said that. so we quarrelled till i went cwp to look for xiao rui jie, net, ricky, lynn po, evon, sylvia, songting, evan and another 2 girls called debbie and jing yi.

they said i look pale when i saw them because im too lazy and no mood for makeup. when we reach the bus interchange, they start to help me put on some. but it didnt make any change to my heart. thanks for all that anyway. its really nice of you all. (:

lynn stayed back for jiahui and we went on to sylvia's house to get stuff for bbq. they take NTUC trolley to play, songting stand on it and they start to push act act to bang the wall. lols. but really had no mood to play. sorries eh sylvia. ur birthday i still moody. haiis.

UPDATE**** (19.1o)
i'll continue on this entry soon. sorry for lack of entries. was too tired and lazy to post boring stuff now. oh ya, we are okay already. thanks to those who talked, helped or in whatever way you are involved. ciaos. (:

;i am afraid